2008 was a very interesting year for me, I went through an unplanned spiritual and mental detoxification. I went through a soul search and re-found myself and a lot of people and memories that were hidden. Some were diamonds in the rough, others were glass in the rough. Either way they were issues that I had to confront in order for me to heal. I celebrate every day, but this time of year is always special for me as I am in my grand father period. I celebrate being born on January 14th and from December 14th - February 14th I celebrate like it is 1999 ( LOL ).
For the past 2 years i have been saying I am ready to detox my mind, body and spirit and heal. That is a lot easier said than done, until this past year I had not realized how much bitterness, resentment, anger and insecurity I had stored within myself. My life has been hard and i have survived through some ordeals that I would not wish on anyone. Yet, through them all I am here today as a beacon to let everyone know that life is wonderful, as long as you seek the joys within life. I had to really confront why I carry the security blanket of fat that I do. It has become so comfortable for me, that I could not believe I allowed it to come back. In 2006 I had lost over 60 lbs and was looking and feeling gooooooood. But in 2007 - 2008, the weight came back on
and i had not realized it (consciously) until a few months ago.

Instant Weight Loss …. LOL
This experience was good for me though, because it allowed me to see myself and go within and realize what affects me, what I eat that does not agree with me and get the fact that physical movement (exercise) is important for the body, on a mind, body and spirit level. I went into this knowing that detoxing my body would be an interesting journey that may have discomforts. The mental detoxification is a bit more intense for me then the physical detox. But, it feels so good to have let go of a lot of the pain and animosity. I feel so free, my mind feels so much clearer. I am not where I want to be or at the completion of the detox journey, matter of fact I am just beginning. But, where I am I only welcome the following stages that are to come.
On January 3rd I will begin the physical detoxification which is my focus for 2009. I am preparing my mind to go through this next phase of the journey, I wait with anticipation to see the end result. My goal to be a healthy and fooooine-sexy-sweet-cool, alkaline balanced being, who can tell the plus size shops and double digit clothing manufacturers good bye (for good). I will be sharing this journey with my Heal Talk Radio family during this next year, as I progress. I wish for everyone to be healthy in mind, body and spirit. A person may be physically healthy, but are they mentally or spiritually at peace? An holistic approach must be taken when we seek health. Obesity and mental disorders have become a normal ab-norm in our society and this is on a global scale. But, the question is what happened to cause that person to find comfort in comfort foods, drugs, alcohol, sex etc. What is causing Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD), Bi-Polar, Schizophrenia to be normal diagnosis in our society? It all begins with thought, food, and lifestyle.
Once again it comes to the fact that…Healing Begins Within!
May our healing journey continue as my physical healing begins
Tonya K
~Osanyindele Lagnak~